Boring life~~

What a boring day again T.T~actually i have a lot thing to do, just i lazy~~~

this thursday have account test and next monday sat test, all havent do revision and even didnt take serious in class...wondering about the test, but now what i'm doing since i so free?? just sit in front laptop and online...hate that feeling!! haiz..where am i~~lazy TOMMY~~

Haiz~sometime really hope that i have a Gf now...actually i have a dream long time ago..

which is in my school life have a Gf with me, share all our life and enjoy our school life together...

cause when come out work is not like school life got so many free time...

but is not allow me to do that, sad...thinking that how good if go travel with Gf, go shopping, go movie and share our event...but i dun think go this chance, cause i dun feel like want pak tou now...

Actually i like a girl now..but, she got Bf already...i dun like be a third ppl...just friend with her enough..because if i chase her and she dun like then even friend also cant do already...i look very forward already..slowly find my target! when got chance then try it and cherish it...dun because of love and hurt myself....

Three Weeks

just notice...We had break up three week! my heart had recover already, just looking forward for my life...

But sometime i still will take note on her...because she is my ex...

Before break i had ready her bday present and some gift from Langkawi...but now still stuck at here and didnt give

her...

write blessing for me and her, and hang it.

Pray for to my family and us

Is collecting sand and make for her

that all i done in Langkawi...but all she dun know and didnt deliver for her include her bday present. if she know, what will she think?

But all is pass...and just wish her always happy in future.

NOW...what i want to do is earn money and save it for enjoy my life. my degree get second upper class. last..go find my love!! haiz...there is long long time ago i demand a lover who stay long with me...when can i get it? just wait the time , see when can i meet it. sometime i really dun know how to chase a girl, funny right?haha~

Three Weeks

THE TRUE

The second day of chinese new year you break up with me...

that day really no mood at all, but lucky i got a gang friend with me although i lose money, is ok..at least i wont feel so hurt...

Actually i had ready one day you will break with me..cause i feel that you not love me anymore..is hurt me one month ago, so when you say break i'm ok, just let you go...cause in the experience tell me when the girl heart change it cant save it back..all the girl is same!!! this is what i disappoint...

I tell you the true in here, i didnt hope that you come here just i want to let off...actually some time i really hate you..hate you give me a lot reason or excuse to prevent we meet. if you really love a ppl, no matter how you will try hard and come out meet me...still remember you tell me say that you say that family in the first, friendship at second and love at last, when i saw the message --->"bullshit"..but i forgive you cause you still young sure will think like that...is hard to let me believe you, you know? all i dun want say out is because i scare you leave me, i just try to believe you because i love you...you are the second girl make my tears came out...

I just hope that i find a girl to stay long with me, but the experience told me is cant...maybe i have to wait few more years or find a girl who love me more than i love her...want find a girl that i love her deeply and she love me deeply is quite hard...haiz~lucky i got a gang of bro too acc me...i just know that i cant alone, do you know every night when i sleep also will think the problem about us?

Haiz~suan la, all is past...just hope you happy then enough...i wont disturb you! good luck~

蔡淳佳 Joi Chua - 左右为难 Zuo You Wei Nan

3 month...

Every day care her whether healthy or not become my habit...

Every night listen her voice and sleep become my habit...

Every day hope to meet her is become my habit...

Every day miss her is become my habit...

Slowly Slowly...She is become a part of my life...

even that we seldom meet but our heart is near...

even she unhappy she wont let me know cause scare me unhappy too...

Because of her i'm happy...

Because of her i smile...

Because of her i sad...

I'm very happy that i had her...

she is a nice and good girl friend...

that make me love her deeply...

there have a least one year that we can meet often...

I know...I can do it....

What i wish for her??

I wish that there is no pressure on her...

I just wish her Smile everyday, happy everyday...

I wish that she would to share the problem with me no matter will cause me sad or not...

we got to add oil for our future!!

LOVE YOU DEAR~~

Unhappy...

i'm sad...cant sleep because of you...i just hope that you can share with me..

i just want you be happy...i dun know why you dun want say out, is it hard to say it out??

haiz... is it because of me??

WHAT ARE YOU THINKING???